Saturday, September 20, 2008
{ 11:19 PM }
visuals from yesterday.
God, i really need to learn how to commit lifes and things into Your hands, i need to learn how to trust in You once again.
I took a very long and slow walk home.
On the way home, many thoughts was flowing through my brain.
Memories of Grandma and me started to flash in my head.
i really felt like crying. i really didn't want to care about how other people are going to think about me.
tears were really welling up in my eyes.
i really didn't know what to do. i'm really lost, confused.
but when i look at the stars above, i really felt like sitting down on the spot.
i really didn't know what to do.
All i know was that i've to turn to God.
All i needed to do was to tell God how i felt, or maybe need not because God knows how i was feeling at that point of time.
i didn't have the courage to go to the hospital to visit Grandma.
I just couldn't bear to see the sufferings she's going through.
I know it hurts alot, but i can't do anything.
I really hope that i was the one suffering instead.
Father, i thank you for my grandma. Father, i pray that as she lies in the hospital, suffering from all the pain, Father, i pray that God, You will watch over her. Father, I ask that You will take away all her pain. God, You know her condition the best, God, You know that she's too old to bear with the pain. God, i pray that You will send Your angels to protect her from any thing.Father, please give me a chance to bring Jesus to her, Father, i really want her to know Jesus because God, i really want her to spend eternity with You. Father, i pray for the rest of my relatives, that God, through this really tough period of time, Father, i pray You'll grant us the strength that we need. Father, I ask that You will give me the oppurtunity to speak into their lifes. Father, i really pray that, God, You will teach me how to commit everything into Your hands. Father, teach me how to stop worrying, teach me how to trust in You, teach me to have faith in You. Father, i really want to submit Grandma into Your hands, Father, I pray you'll watch over her. In Jesus Name,Amen.
visuals from yesterday.